A Curse or a Gift?

[fisynlavanna]

IC Date: March 15th, 2012

Blanche lay on the exam table, shaking. This couldn't be happening, this wasn't happening. There was no way. No no no no no!

Listhiath watched as he rider lay on the table shaking, she'd never seen BlancheHers shake like that before. BlancheMine, are you okay? Are you sick? I'll call Nyketh, he'll bring N'lonHis.

"No, Lis! No, don't, please," Blanche shot up off the exam table, shaking even more. N'lon couldn't find out, he just couldn't.

Listhiath blinked at BlancheHers. Didn't she like N'lon? Why not?

Blanche took in a deep breathe, "Lis, I'm pregnant."

Listhiath moved away from the window of the room her rider was in and bugled happily before moving back to the window again, That's wonderful news, BlancheMine!

"No, Lis. It's not. You know how I can see hear and feel things others can't? Well, my curse can be passed down to the baby."

Your gift Listhiath corrected gently.

"I guess it's in the eye of the beholder," Blanche mumbled.

Listhiath, though BlancheHers had told her not to, called out to Nyketh and sent out BlancheHers emotions to him, Bring N'lonYours quickly. BlancheMine needs him.

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Nyketh quickly relayed the message to N'lon. And after spending a solid ten minutes trying to get the blue weyrling out of bed, N'lon was on his way to the Infirmiry. He was cursing his dragon the entire way there.

When N'lon reached the Infirmiry it was easy to find Blanche's room. She was apparently argueing with her green. He knocked lightly, then leaned against the doorjam. "What's going on? I got a very desperate message from my dragon, saying your green had called him."

It was obvious that N'lon was annoyed. He should be sleeping right now...

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Blanche froze, "Lis, I swear I ought to kill you!"

Listhiath moved away from the window quickly I'm sorry BlancheMine, but you need N'lon

Blanche sighed and shook even more, clinging to the sheets on the exam table, "Come on in, N'lon...We-we need to talk."

Tears started streaming down Blanches face. What if N'lon didn't want a child at all? What if he didn't mind it but then heard about this curse their child might incur? Would he run? Would he get angry? Or would he just not care? Blanche was afraid, for the first time in a very long time she was afraid of what might happen.

[FaizahPandora]

N'lon shrugged. "We can talk from here. I'd rather stand." He said gruffly.

He was in a bad mood. He didn't want to deal with people right now. He was tired, having spent the entire night up with his new flit. He wanted to sleep, not be here right now. And he knew in a few short hours, the flit would be up again...

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"I'm pregnant, N'lon. And I don't know if it's such a good thing. I may as well just come out with all of it. I can see, hear and feel the dead all around me. I know when someone has died, I feel how others around feel. This could most likely be passed on to this child...our child...N'lon...tell me everything's going to be okay, please. I need you...I'm afraid..."

Blanche was crying almost hysterically at this point. She watched to door, hoping that N'lon would at least give words of encouragement. He wasn't the most touchy-feely man but she he would at least let her know it would all be okay.

Surely everything would be okay.

[FaizahPandora]

N'lon froze where he was standing. Blanche was pregnant? With his kid...? When had this happened? How could it have happened? Weren't all the women at Rocky on some medicine that kept them from getting pregnant...?

All these questions and more ran through N'lon's head. He certainly wasn't ready to have a child. He had never wanted kids. Never dreamed of having kids. N'lon had only wanted to be a dragonrider!

But now this woman, who was apparently pregnant with his kid, was asking him if it would be alright. And what was he supposed to do?!

Comfort her, he supposed. Awkwardly he walked over to Blanche and patted her head. "Everything is going to be just fine. Think about it this way. You're going to be a mother. Isn't that what every woman wants?"

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Blanche could feel the confusion and awkwardness from N'lon and it only made her shake more, "I do, but...I don't want our child to suffer like I have...N'lon...I'm sorry. I've made things more complicated for you and I'm sorry. You-You don't have to stick around if you don't want to. I-I just thought you should know...I'm sorry."

Listhiath listened in on the conversation feeling the extreme emotions of her rider. BlancheHers was going to make herself sick with all that crying. She turned to Nyketh, her eyes swirling with the color of worry, What can we do to make it better, Nyketh? I don't like seeing BlancheMine like this, it scares me.

Listhiath looked to the blue almost pleadingly, she didn't know what else to do. She started to rethink having called on Nyketh to bring N'lon here. She'd only wanted to help BlancheHers feel better, but it seems now that that plan had backfired.

Blanche didn't know what else she could say to N'lon except a string of apologies. She felt sick to her stomach and lied down on the exam table in an attempt to alleviate her flipping insides. But it just didn't work...

[FaizahPandora]

N'lon shook his head. "I may not know much about kids, but I'm going to be there for any that are mine." He assured her.

She felt the dead. That was something strange, but not so much. Wasn't it similiar to what dragons could do when one of their own went between? It didn't worry him that much. At a place like Rocky, the strange found a place to belong.

He shrugged. "If the baby does have the same thing as you, it's no big deal. It would find a place to belong here at Rocky." He said confidently.

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Blanche sniffled, calming down alittle. N'lon was taking this much better than she'd thought he would.

She sat back up and reached for him, she wanted to be close. At this point she felt like a lost child and she needed N'lon's comfort. However, she knew his new flit would also need his attention, she drew back. "You should go back to your weyr. I'm sure your flit will be up soon. Raj is making sure mine is content since I had to come here...Thank you...for being so supportive...I appreciate it..."

Blanche wondered silently if all this was going to put a strain on their relationship. She, unlike the other female riders she did not take birth control. If one looked at her records, they'd see that Blanche was "physically unable to conceive children."

This was part of the reason Blanche had freaked out. How could she be pregnant if she couldn't conceive in the first place? This was a miracle in this way, but still she worried about the future of the child. She hoped their child would be lucky and not incur her curse.

It's not a curse BlancheMine, it's a gift[/color] Listhiath grumbled

[FaizahPandora]

N'lon shrugged. "It shouldn't be up for another hour or so. I was trying to catch some sleep while it was out." He explained.

He leaned down a gently kissed her forehead. "Don't worry about anything. These things work themselves out." He said. With that N'lon lef the Infirmiry, heading back to his weyr.